I open my mouth
to speak
But not a word
emerges.
I try again.
This time
I manage to eek out
A tiny squeak.
And the next time
I can actually speak
But in a different voice
From my own.
This voice is deeper.
Hoarser.
More manly.
But I'm a woman.
And I want to sound like one.
I don't want to have people run
at the sound of my voice.
I don't want to feel
the scratchiness.
I don't want to have to
concentrate
In order to awallow.
And I want to sing.
Can I have my voice back?
PLEASE?
20 comments:
Oiy did you yell too much at your students or siblings yesterday? Refuah Shleima! Sending you a cyber cup of hot cocoa (if that's possible.)
Refuah shelaimah! As a fellow singer, I can fully appreciate the frustration you must be experiencing right now. I lost my voice a couple of months ago and it was torture until I had it back.
Ha! Judging from the picture and opening words of your poem, I was settling down for a serious, heartzig piece...and then I almost laughed out loud in this whisper-quiet room of working girls!
Feel better soon!!
And when you get your voice back, we can sing together. Over a big ice cream sundae. Can't wait.
halfshared - i always yell at my students. :P
scraps - gosh, i hate going off key. drives me nuts...
CP - i'm not ALWAYS serious. just sometimes.
so, where and when are we meeting?
oh, and i kinda got my voice back. not all the way, but it's getting there. bichasdei hashem.
I feel like that... um... often.
Its quite frustrating.
I hope ure vocal chords return to their proper state soon.
Talking about losing your voice...Cut and paste this link.
http://www.zichron.org/video_e.php?vid=5
Don't strain your voice!
You may get spasmodic dysphonia, God forbid. Check it out, google it, I'm serious.
Refuah shelaima...
IA - they've kinda returned.
KD - yeah, i've seen that many a time. every time i'm feeling down, i play that link... thanks for posting it.
JM20 - dunno - what i just read on it doesn't say that straining your voice causes it. and don't worry, i ain't straining it. my voice is way too precious to me. i had my class do some classwork instead of me teaching them...
Dreamer--
Hmmmm....how about Motzaei Shabbos, Sweet Choice, my car?
:-)
CP - which sweet choice?
:P
I have a car, too
:)
Here, have some chicken soup with me.
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(Those are swirls of rising steam, btw, not dollar signs, despite common misconceptions)
You must be contagious, I feel crummy too. I haven't posted lately because I'm busy falling asleep in strange places, though I've mentally gone through 3 posts since last time.
Oy...
Did you at least win Color War?
fuah sheleima
BM - (sorry, i like calling you that. you're gonna have to live with it)
the soup was yummy. expensive, too. and yeah, i didn't tell you i can pass diseases through cyberspace?
david - nope, couldn't sing the theme song, so the other team won.
:(
I wanna come to Sweet Choice! Can I crash?
Also, I once gave my sister pinkeye over the phone, so I'd say you can for sure pass along communicable diseases over the internet. :-P
Dreamer--
How can that even be a question?! The one on L is immeasurably better (Parking being the number one variable.) Plus, they probably know me there by now...
And I don't have my own car, but at night it's easier to borrow one of my parents'.
Scraps--
Crash away! It'd be great to see you! Especially while eating ice cream! What bliss...
I'm having a friend from Brooklyn over for Shabbos...maybe I'll go back with her motza"sh and meet up with y'all. :)
I miss sweet choice...;-(
Moved outa town... ;-(
But you do know that ice cream- altho it cures many things- is not sucha great choice for throaght and voice problems, right?
Very cute post! I liked!
Hope you get your voice back soon!
Is *that* what this is about - being hoarse? And I was reading into it about identity crises and stuff. Time to cut the English class critiques and just read, I think. :-D
CP - yeah, that's the one i frequent as well.
scraps - more ice cream?
lol.
IA - we'll have to ship you some...
and that's what YOU think! what could be better for the throat than cold, creamy ice cream?
AP - it's back, thank G-d. my voice and me - we're tight stuff.
bad4shidduchim - LOL. yeah, plain pshat. no drash involved at this time.
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