I hate being pressured to do something I dislike. I have a difficult time saying no, and once I'm committed to something, I rarely back out. So why is it that others, especially some of those close to me, take advantage of this aspect of me? Don't they know that it hurts me so? Don't the know that it pains me greatly to be be teased? Don't they realize that in order for me to be happy right now, I don't have to be making money, but rather, enjoy what I'm doing? Why do others try to make me feel guilty for choosing to teach rather than working in a myriad of other jobs? Why do I have to make $70,000+ in order to be considered succesful? What if I just want to CHILL right now? What if I find fulfillment in other areas? I don't have a family now. I don't have many bills to pay. I just want to contribute to the world right now, in my own way. Can't they just let me be?
I'm getting so totally sick of the jabs aimed at me that I want to just run far, far away...
The title's sorta self explanatory, ain't it? This is the place where the things I dream are sent to cyberspace for all to examine, dissect, and return with comments.
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Ouch, you hit a sore point. I am fully with you on this one! Money can't buy happiness and happiness comes first. It isn't like i'm sitting at home twiddling my thumbs and i'm sure that you aren't either. We may not have the pressure of raising a family but not having it is also a pressure and their comments just add more.
I also tell people that working from dawn to dusk just to save for the future may be the choice of some but I feel that as money is from Hashem I have bitochen that He'll help when i need. Not that I'm wasting it now or not bothering to work at all.
About saying no, yep again I can only sigh and say that horrible cliche, I know how you feel. I now work hard on not feeling guilty when i say no. I also find that telling people that i have thought it over, my answer is no and that they should please RESPECT MY DECISION also helps.
Good luck and my truest sympathies
That must hurt. However you are 100% right. Money isn't everything. How many wealthy people have problems and aren't happy. I've seen people struggling monetarily, and they are the happiest people. Do what you feel is right, what makes you feel fulfilled and successful.
I totally understand you. Just this week, I saw an advertisement for a job that really interested me because it is much more fulfilling and rewarding than the current office job that I have. When I expressed interest in it out loud to my mother, she was horrified that I would even think of leaving a well-paying job for the kind of job I was considering. I feel that with me being single right now, my job is my main focus and I might as well be happy with what I am doing. Why can't people understand that?
I am TOTALLY with you on this one. For a while, every time I went to my grandparents' house, it was like, "You know, you could still learn accounting... your cousin got another raise this week... look what Esther bought her mother..." (Now it's more like, "So nu, why you don't come so often anymore?"
Then there are the ones who say, "You're so talented in ____, you should be a ___!" or "So if it's so difficult, why are you teaching? You could be ____!" And always as if they have the biggest chiddush. Like I didn't agonize over this decision at every turning point and milestone.
Well, anyway, when you run away, take me along!
don't back down - helping others the way you do offers fulfillment in a real way...
Idealists of the world Unite!
I wish we could somehow break this death grip that money holds over the imaginations..of the peoples..of the world...especially..our peoples..
We should be above that.
That is so, so hard. It stinks when people take advantage of you, especially when they should know better. And it's hurtful when people you respect and care about don't treat you with the proper sensitivity and respect.
You are a FANTASTIC teacher, one that most girls would be incredibly lucky to have, and that is the most important thing! You don't have to be making a million dollars; you're making a difference in people's LIVES. That is so much more important. And yes, you don't have so many expenses now, b"H, so why in the world shouldn't you be doing what makes you feel fulfilled? I wish that there was a way to make all those people who don't appreciate you understand how important it is for you to do the job you're doing, and how hurtful it is when they tease you about it and make you feel small.
(((((HUGS)))))
What stuck me from your post was the underlying "9" (Enneagram for those who are familiar) - Wanting a trying to be all things to all people. I myself struggle with that... Don't forget about yourself, for "If I am not for myself, who is for me?"
smile - couldn't agree more. and sorry for hiting a sore point...
littlebirdies - yeah, i know i'm right. :P
halfshared - i just don't ask anyone's opinions anymore, cuz they just frustrate me. do your own thing, that's what i say...
basmelech - yeah, we know about the talents... which job should i be doing now?
david - yeah, we should...
scraps - thatnks for caring...
at peace - a 9? i'm actually a 2, 4, 5 and 9 al mixed into one. with some 6 and 8 thrown in for good measure... i could never put a number on myself, and neither could anyone else who tried... i just fit into too many positions...
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